Friday, June 2, 2023

A Rollercoaster Ride

This is a more personal post. To be a writer -- and in my case, to aspire to a new metaphysics -- is a roller coaster ride. Above all, I have found the uncertainty and instability to be a very big challenge -- and then one requires dogged perseverance, over years, to resolve the conceptual issues, to give them expression, to have them find recognition, to get them published, to cope with the public, and so on. I was interviewed last year: 

"Which of your books gave you the most pleasure to write?

"Pleasure is not really the word. It is sacrifice."

Today I prayed, "Lord, this is a foolish prayer. ... Please give me a sign -- today -- that it's all been worth it." I fell asleep. Shortly after I woke up, I received an e-mail, offering me a big break. If the people who offered me this are looking in here, I am thinking on it, and will be responding to it after giving it a little thought. OBSERVATION: And what does one say to the fact that this follows on from a prayer? I wish I had written the prayer down, so that I could look at the prayer and the answer together, in writing!

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