No Longer Proactive

With a dynamic ministry at the start of 2011, I knew that this would be deeply impacted by the death of my wife -- but I didn't know how. She herself only said to me, "With God, you can do it." A major impact: I lost my ability to be proactive. One could say aggressive, but that is not really the word. Therefore, while I continued to be a whirlwind in ministry, I had lost my ... bite. OBSERVATION: This had real consequences. One major consequence was that I ceased to be proactive with the finances, and some real problems seeped in. I also ceased to be proactive with Church discipline, which gradually unravelled.